She seemed to know how to cover her tracks and how to hurt people without leaving any evidence.
I could be tortured by her every day to the point of wishing for death, yet not find a single scar on my body.
During that time, her words constantly echoed in my ears.
“Sophia, how could someone like you be worthy of a golden boy like Lucas? Why don’t you take a good look in the mirror and see how little you’re worth?”
“And don’t think Lucas actually likes you. You’re wrong. He’s just playing with you. Otherwise, do you think he wouldn’t know what I’m really like after growing up together?”
“In the end, you’re nothing but a dog for us to toy with.”
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The physical pain was nothing compared to the emotional trauma.
So Lucas wasrit with me because he liked me, but to better manipulate me.
Of course,
I had always wondered why someone as seemingly perfect as him would choose to be with me. So that’s why.
After Lily’s death, Emma’s bullying became increasingly worse.
Her beautiful face always revealed a chilling smirk.
“Sophia, don’t forget, you killed Lily with your own hands. Of course, you have to repay your debt with your life.”
“And don’t even think about telling Lucas everything and asking him to save you. He already hates you to the bone and wants you dead, doesn’t he?
Yes,
She was right. Lucas already wanted me dead, so how could he possibly reach out to help me?
From the day Lily died, the Lucas who once said he would love me forever disappeared as well.
After some time under Emma’s bullying, I inevitably developed severe depression.
I started to have sleepless nights. Whenever I closed my eyes, the scene of the car accident would flood my mind.
Before my mental state completely collapsed, I finally went to the hospital.
Seeing my haggard and miserable appearance, the doctor sighed regretfully.
“Sophia, this isn’t your fault. No one would have wanted this outcome.”
“Don’t put too much pressure on yourself, okay?”
“There are still many beautiful things in this world – the sunrise in the morning, the sunset in the evening, and love. You need to have hope for life to truly experience this world.”
“Lily wanted you to live on. I don’t think she would want to see you like this.”
After returning to the apartment, the doctor’s words kept echoing in my ears.
When emotions overwhelmed me, I let the sharp fruit knife cut my skin, allowing the bright red blood to mix with water.
But just as I was about to slit my wrists, the doctor’s words would always pull my sanity back to reality.
Yes.
Lily gave her life so I could live on. Surely she would want me to stay alive and see the beauty of this world on her
behalf.
8:01 PM
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Not end up with the same fate as her.
Time and again, I pulled myself out of hell.
Time and again, I told myself I deserved to be loved, that I should live on to experience the beauty this world had to
offer.
And time and again, I truly hoped I could earn Lucas’s forgiveness.
But…
It was just too hard.
