8
John did not sign the divorce papers.
I don’t understand.
But I was too tired to ask.
I lay in the hospital bed, people visiting me
every day, but my eyesight was getting worse
and worse.
And I couldn’t tell who was who.
Lily would come back day and night to take
care of me, chatting in my ear.
We are family after all.
Even if there were twenty years and those
people and those things between me and her.
I was still happy when she was with me.
I didn’t know my little girl could talk so much. You can talk about everything she had seen and experienced in the past 20 years.
If the nurse didn’t stop her, she probably would have repeated all the people and things she had seen and experienced in the past twenty years.
“Mom, you won’t blame me, will you? I was still
young, I didn’t understand what home was, I just felt like Mom didn’t play with me, I probably didn’t like me, and that person was deliberately
trying to please me, I couldn’t judge what true
love was.”
“Mom, you won’t blame Dad, will you? He just
didn’t want you to be too tired, and he didn’t
want you to give up your career because of me.
He has always been calm and rational, so he let
that person live in our house for four years. Dad
didn’t think that those four years would make
Mom so sad that he even wanted to divorce
Dad.”
I didn’t understand Lily and John’s transition.
“After all, she’s the teacher who raised you,
how can she be called that woman?”
Lily became agitated.
“If it weren’t for her, Mom would never have
given us up, Mom would never have
participated in that inhumane project, and Mom
wouldn’t be lying on the bed like this, unable to
go anywhere…”
Lily said, her voice full of sobs.
Hot tears fell on the back of my hand, which
made my heart ache.
“She deliberately asked Dad to take care of her,
causing Mom to have a miscarriage! She knew
that Mom and Dad were married, but she
shamelessly interfered between you! She didn’t
even have a bachelor’s degree, but she dared to
pretend to be a sea turtle master and daydream
about joining the research institute! I didn’t
scold her, I was already being lenient!”
I was stunned.
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It was beyond my expectations.
I didn’t even dare to believe that such a gentle
girl could have such a poisonous side.
“How did you find out?”
I asked.
Lily replied: “When I went to my parents‘ bedroom to play, I accidentally found Mom’s miscarriage report. Dad found out after investigating. Dad regretted not taking good
care of Mom, he really knew he was wrong, Dad
he… he has been suffering these years, he has
been alone…”
Lily said a lot more.
I suddenly felt a little regret.
I regret not signing the divorce agreement
before leaving.
At least John could not enter and leave my
ward as my family member.
Although John had been very careful not to
make any noise.
But I know he’s always been there.
Maybe I studied him too thoroughly, so I can
smell his scent.
“Are you crying?”
The room was quiet.
My hoarse voice was abrupt.
After a long while.
I still heard John’s response.
“N–no…”
His sobs didn’t lie.
I took a light breath: “Don’t be like this, I’m
much better off than my teacher.”
They were cremated for fear of radiation leaks.
Lat least lasted for ten years, finished the
research, and was able to see the research
come out and hear the cheers of the people.
“I’m sorry… it was my fault, it was my fault, I’m
sorry…”
“It’s okay.”
“But we can never go back, can we?”
I smiled mockingly: “I’m like this, there’s no
need to go back…”
I was a little tired after saying a few words.
John quickly told me not to speak anymore, and
said that if I didn’t want him around, he could
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