I started frequently scrolling through our chat history, trying to find some clues. Those sweet words we once exchanged now see- med so distant and unfamiliar. I tried to relive those good times through memories, but each recollection only made me more mis- erable.
I began to realize that Ethan’s coldness toward me hadn’t happened overnight. I tried to accept this fact, but when night fell, I coul- dn’t help but think of him. I started reflecting on my own actions, trying to pinpoint the problem. Was I too dependent on him? Were my expectations of him too high? Or was he simply a fickle person? However, no matter how hard I thought, I couldn’t find a reaso- nable explanation.
I began to realize that my relationship with Ethan had been built on an unstable foundation from the very beginning. Our encounter wasn’t driven by true–love, but by our own needs and desires propelling us forward.
I thought back to my time with Jake, the plain yet genuine happiness we shared. I missed it terribly. I started to regret my initial choice. Why had I given up on someone who truly loved me for a moment of impulsiveness? I realized I had been blinded by desire and vanity, losing my rationality and judgment.
On this lonely night, my yearning for Jake grew stronger. My hands trembling, I tried to contact him again, but the message on the screen pierced my heart – he had blocked me. In that moment, I felt as if I was pushed into a bottomless abyss; all hope and illusi- on shattered instantly.
I learned through friends that he was about to get engaged. And he was incredibly doting and attentive to his fiancée. I knew deep- ly that my connection with him was completely severed, and I would never have a chance to an back to
On this lonely night, my yearning for Jake grew stronger. My hands trembling, I tried to contact him again, but the message on the screen pierced my heart – he had blocked me. In that moment, I felt as if I was pushed into a bottomless abyss; all hope and illusi- on shattered instantly.
Hearned through friends that he was about to get engaged. And he was incredibly doting and attentive to his fiancée. I knew deep- ly that my connection with him was completely severed, and I would never have a chance to go back to how things were. My heart was filled with endless regret and self–blame. I blamed myself for my impulsiveness and selfishness. Why hadn’t I cherished that sincere relationship? But reality was right in front of me, and I had to accept it.
I knew my chance was gone. But I also understood that everyone has their own path in life. I could only wish him well, wishing him and his new bride a happy and fulfilling life.
I stood outside the door of happiness, feeling like I was drifting further and further away from it. My heart was filled with endless regret. I regretted my past impulsiveness and selfishness, regretted not cherishing that genuine affection. However, time doesn’t rewind, and everything was already set in stone. And I, too, had to learn to face my mistakes, accept reality, and strive to find my own happiness.
I began to try and change my lifestyle and attitude. I learned to live alone, to take care of myself and nurture myself. I started focu- sing on my inner world, searching for the things that truly made me happy and fulfilled. I knew this would be a long and difficult process, but I believed that if I persevered, one day I would find my own happiness and a place to belong.
I knew this was the punishment and price I had to face. But I also hoped that through this experience, I could rediscover myself, find the person I once was.
